April 04, 2020 - Youghness Monster was cancelled last week, we all knew it was coming, it was just too close
Another race cancelled, this is how it seems to be for a while. Luckily I do not have another race until August and our next river trip isn't until mid July. It has been such a whirlwind of emotions. I will admit in the beginning, I was a believer that this was "just another flu." Then the Santa Cruz Paddlefest cancelled, and the snowball took off. Our California trip cancelled and I ended up cancelling my Surf and Slice event that I had planned. I was upset at first, it seemed so rash, but in my heart I knew it was the right thing to do. I worried about what people thought when I cancelled, but everyone was really understanding. Then it all hit hard, the shelter in place for the Bay Area, then the entire state of California. This is real...
I finally started to see it, and I admit that I didn't want to see it because I wanted to go on my trip, do my event, and see my friends. Then I started reading about it, seeing the graphs, watching the videos and understanding the greater picture that was being drawn. My husband and I would share what we read every morning, sent each other links that were shared with us. But then the frustration set in, why can't everyone else see this, why can't all the states shelter in place like California, why are the beaches full...Then you feel the frustration when it is people that you know that are not helping to stop the spread. People keep working non essential jobs, then return home to their older parents or sick family members. People want to travel during this time, even though they are in shelter in place states. People want to explore small towns, threatening their small community.
Why can't they just stay home? Sure, I can go down the street and paddle in the ocean and never see a soul- That's way more fun than the lake. I can go walk on the beach or the botanical gardens and keep my distance, that's much better than laps in the neighborhood. I could drive up to the James River and do attainments or find a park and play site, then I could try out my new kayak- that's way more fun than paddling on the lake and practicing my roll. The bigger question, is any of that essential and the answer is a resounding no.
I am embracing my surroundings- creating new workouts on the lake, more cherished moments with my 17 year old dachshund Mickey, more walks and talks with my husband, the list goes on. I cannot continue to worry about what others decide to do, I can only focus on doing my part and keeping my family and friends safe. I can share positive messages about what to do in these times, with the hope that more will come on board.
Stay safe and healthy everyone, we will get through this and be stronger on the other side. I can't wait to get there and meet all the incredible people who pulled us through. That is the light at the end of the tunnel for me.